I have always had a bloated stomach since I can remember. I always looked like I was 3 to 6 months pregnant depending on the day. It only took 1 glass of water and poof!!!! Belly has arrived. stomach aches have been excuses for years. I was good at getting them everytime I didn't want to do something. All drama is in my stomach. All I had to do was think about how I didn't want to go somewhere and immediately I would create the stomach ache...It got to the point where it was happening when I was questioning myself if I didn't or did want to go out with my friends to a party. I'm not taking it anymore. Its time to get to the pit of what is causing that belly problem.

This is what I say to myself to uncreate patterns and junk from my past...
First I surround myself with love.
What do I need to do to to have a flat stomach?
Everything in the way of this I release you and let you go.
​What will it take to let go of the addictions.  Everything in the way of this I release you and let you go.
Everywhere addictions are blocked, I release you and let you go. 
I body test myself and find my stomach is blocked from forgiveness. 
Everywhere my stomach is blocked for forgiving me, we release it and let it go.

I forgive my stomach because I have put my stomach down for 35 years for looking fat, ugly, blaming it for the uncomfortable pressure and messing up my life!!! I should probably forgive my brain also since every time I told myself I'm fat, ugly, uncomfortable and blaming my stomach for messing up my life, my brain is the part of the body that sends the message to the stomach believing I wanted to feel this way. 
The body is energy like everything else and it has feelings attached to it. 

I have always thought I looked like an apple with trigs...
Throughout life I worked out religiously and did thousands of sit ups. There was always always a poochy stomach. My stomach has so much junk build up in there. Getting to the root of it is taking awhile.

Let's muscle test to find out what is going on and why!

My step dad popped up again.  I was asking why I continue to eat junk food until it's gone. The strangest thing came up. My mom was very healthy and so was I since mom made me. When my step dad came along, he demanded junk food. I was excited because I rarely saw it but, felt bad for my mom who was trying to keep us healthy. This is when I started with eating a 1/2 gallon of ice-cream or cakes and pastries . I ate it because I didn't want my step dad to eat it. We are keeping him healthy. Also, I didn't want him to have it. I wanted it all to myself. As I released the junk from my past I still had junk going on with the step dad. What came up was I needed to forgive him, and forgive myself for holding on to this junk for so long. I also had to forgive my mom for not buying the junk for me and forgive myself for holding on to mom isn't cool because she doesn't buy junk food for me.  This is really what it was all about. She bought it for the step dad but, not for me. What is up with that? She loves him more than me? We have all been forgiven to move forward. Hopefully no more compulsive eating. I will check on this in a week to see if it's still there...

Some people may not go through what I have gone through. You may just need to apologize to the stomach and start telling it how you appreciate it. Other people may have to get in there and tear down layers of emotional walls to get through to the center finally  reaching freedom. It will happen. Keep asking the same question: 

First  surround yourself with love.
What do I need to do to to have a flat stomach?
Everything in the way of this I release you and let you go.
​What will it take to let go of the addictions.  Everything in the way of this I release you and let you go.
Everywhere addictions are blocked, I release you and let you go. 
I body test myself and find my stomach is blocked from forgiveness. 
Everywhere my stomach is blocked for forgiving me, we release it and let it go.

One day I will get pregnant and it will be perfect fit for me. I wore it so well.Lol.



1. Write down "what you want".
2. Write down how you plan on having it.
3. Write down "what would it take to have this right now."
4. Visualize what it would look like.
5.Be aware of your surroundings. Sometimes the answer is right there.
6. If you haven't seen my video on how to muscle test your blocks watch to help yourself learn what may be blocking you.You do have to be open minded and believe for muscle testing to work.
7. Always surround yourself with love. 
Sometimes memories pop up. It could be a bad  memory that comes up. If something does pop up ask what does this have to do with what I want? You may release some emotions. This is normal and great! If this happens, say to yourself I love myself enough to let this go. Keep saying it over and over until you feel lighter or free.
If your angry, judgemental, blaming people or yourself, this could be blocking exactly what you want. Sometimes its fear, scared or you just don't know. Message me and I can help.
Message me if you have any questions. Email: heal2change@gmail.com

I woke up feeling pretty good after all the ice-cream I ate. I was excited to find out why I couldn't stop myself from eating most of it. I started with some deep breathing exercises and ran a few sprints. That loosens up all the junk in the body to let it go! I went back to my step dad since that's when I remember eating ice-cream like I was in a contest to win more ice-cream. As I asked what is causing me to eat this junk like I'm a wild animal. Memories of my step dad taking off with all the money my mom put away for me. Could this be the problem to my addictions to food and my bloating looking like I'm 6 months pregnant? If I don't eat junk food anymore what would I do? I thought about it and I would find a new hobby. Is this why I support men and give them my money. This could clean up a lot of my junk.

I started working on myself telling my mind and my stomach they are functioning at 100%. My dad no longer has control over my eating addictions. Everything in the way I release it and let it go. I said this about 8 times before I felt lighter. My mind feels clearer and I'm not having to search for words. The words just come to me. Everything feels easier.

I continued to heal myself by sending love and forgiveness to my stomach. Next, I test the stomach and ask it to forgive me. My stomach had years of bloating, gas, stomach aches. I was very hard on the stomach for making me feel fat and uncomfortable. I already knew the stomach would hold resistance. 

I said to myself "Everywhere the stomach is blocked for love and forgiveness, we release it and let it go. We are ready to move forward right here, right now! I love and forgive  my stomach and my stomach loves and forgives me. We are ready to stop addictions now!". I wasn't clearing love for my stomach quickly. I put my stomach down for 35 years. I was blaming it for being bloated, looking fat and not being able to wear the clothes I wanted to wear.
I asked if I was cleared from my step dad. I wasn't. I was getting frustrated....He was only around for a 1 year. I didn't think he left much of an impression. What came to my mind was, my dad died when I was 3. I always wanted my dad or a dad. My step dad who was only around for 1 year never showed me any love. He didn't play with play the way I envisioned. He left me just like my dad and he didn't say good bye!

I repeated "What would it take to let my step dad go?  Everything blocking the step dad I let it go now!  What will it take for the stomach to let it go? Everything in the way of loving my stomach, I release you and let you go! I repeated this about 20 times until I was free of it?

Today is a great day! No more sugar. Yup, I wont eat it anymore...That only lasted 5 hours. Longer than the first time I tried to quit a couple of days ago. My son and I went grocery shopping for healthy snacks and some junk food. I don't know how the rocky road ice-cream got in the cart but, I felt I was only going to have a bite. My son wanted his pop sickle once we got in the car. It was  a hot day and I let him. I also got my spoon from the side door of the car and tried a bite of my ice-cream. And another and oh you have to get a bite with the almonds.It was melted just enough to perfection of the way I like it. I kept scooping around the edges of the outside. My taste buds were having a party. I watched my hands going at it scraping the soft part of the ice-cream off the sides. I couldn't stop. I didn't want to stop. It was way to good. All I was thinking is, "I will not be hard on myself anymore if I lose control". I put the ice-cream away and proceeded to drive home. The first light I came up to was red so, I got my ice-cream out and my spoon was right there in my hand ready to dive in. Oh great! the light is green. Now if I can just get home before I eat anymore. Nope, another read light. The ice-cream is even better now that it had time to melt. It made it so much easier for me to scoop it faster. I'm probably setting a bad example to my son. Remember, don't be hard on yourself, I say inside my head. Another red light, oh my goodness, why does this ice-cream want me so bad? Is this the way we say good bye to sugar? Can we still be friends? By this time the  ice-cream is sitting in my lap. Im shoveling it in as if I was a dog eating for the first time after being locked up in a cage.  20 minutes later we are home. I still had 2 very large scoops of ice-cream left. I could eat them but, I figured maybe someone else in the house would like ice-cream. After I put the groceries away I realized I should have been talking about how healthy Im going to be and how healthy I am now!
Never talk about what your trying to stop. That never works, as I just showed you. I'm already excited to get a good night sleep so, I can wake up and start over working on why I ate most of the ice-cream. 

If you want to quite doing something, you need to start talking about what you want to do. Why talk about what you quit eating. When you talk about something you don't want in your life your feeding the energy and sending mixed messages. So, the universe  thinks you want it still. This is with anything your trying to stop doing.

1. Write down "what you want".
2. Write down how you plan on having it.
3. Write down "what would it take to have this right now."
4. Visualize what it would look like.
5.Be aware of your surroundings. Sometimes the answer is right there.
6. If you haven't seen my video on how to muscle test your blocks watch to help yourself learn what may be blocking you.You do have to be open minded and believe for muscle testing to work.
7. Always surround yourself with love. 
Sometimes memories pop up. It could be a bad  memory that comes up. If something does pop up ask what does this have to do with what I want? You may release some emotions. This is normal and great! If this happens, say to yourself I love myself enough to let this go. Keep saying it over and over until you feel lighter or free.
If your angry, judgemental, blaming people, this could be blocking exactly what you want. Sometimes its fear, scared or you just don't know. Message and I can help.
Message me if you have any questions. Email: heal2change@gmail.com

After eating that Junk Food last night I woke up early and started apologizing to my body for what I had done. I'm working on having my best friend(my body) work with me. My stomach was bloated, my energy was doing okay. Usually my energy flat lines to where I'm just laying there like a zombie...no thought, no motivation...I'm excited!  I have energy to write about  this.
Anyways, I went to the field to do some leg work out, sprints for cardio and to release some junk while also forgiving my body. Also, ask for forgiveness so, we are (me and my body) functioning at 100%. As I'm Sprinting I say ( I love you legs and my legs love me. My body is working at optimal health. My body is strong and fast. My body is motivated. As I did my lunges I noticed I had no pain. Earlier I had leg pain. Today is an important leg day. We are building the sexiest legs ever! 
Now time to find out why I sabotage my body. I'm ready to stop it. I stretched in the shade breathing in and out and asked "What would it take to stop eating junk food when I'm ready to stop?" All the sudden I went back to a memory where I was eating 1/4 gallon of chocolate chip mint ice-cream. My step dad appeared in my memory. All though, he was only in my life for a short time, he never said good bye to me. I broke down in tears and realized that must have been important. I remember it wasn't a good relationship for my mom. When I muscle tested myself the test came up that that was the reason I eat like a crazy junk food person. I always wondered If my mom knew I was the one eating all the muffins in a day or eating a gallon of icecream in a few days. I would eat a cake. MMM....I still get excited just thinking about it and I don't even have to be there to eat it. I will let you know if it works. 

Went to an outdoor concert and had a blast! At the end of the concert I could smell marijuana. I'm blaming someone for smoking and giving me a contact high. Lol. I immediately started thinking of food. After the concert I was ready to eat everything I could think of. The dinner menu was closed. Bummer, I would have eaten a healthy steak! Yes, I'm an occasional meat eater. Appetizers and dessert only. Steak nachos was the only thing calling my name.Since I was sharing with 3 other people I didn't get to eat much. I was hoping to go home now but, than, someone had to mention dessert. Ugh... I felt stuck to my seat and couldn't move. My mouth said yes. What! my mind said.Have you forgotten? Your working on... backing away from sugar... possibly deleting it from your..diet. My mouth proceeded to order the creme brulee. It also said get the Mud Pie. I wont eat the Mud Pie my mind said... Once the dessert arrived I took a bite of the Mud Pie. Why does it have to be so good? I proceeded to have  another bite...My creme brulee, It was good but, the fudge was exceptional! So good!!! I'm in trouble...ugh..I helped eat the Mud Pie. I feel they are just trying to fatten us up. Its such a huge piece. I shared it with 3 people and still it was to much. I wont let it go to waste. 
On the way home I felt guilty and like failure...It was only 8 hours and I couldn't stay mad at sugar. I forgot at the concert the cookie I ate yum yum yum! and rice crispy treats with nutella. I said no! But they kept looking at me. I just tried a little piece...Tomorrow I will work on why I do this!!!! It's not good to be hard on the body. Your body has feelings..

​Anybody else feel like this? I’m taking a break from my best friend sugar....After 2 hours I went shopping for food... Reisens chocolate covered caramel jumped inside the cart... .as I proceeded to open to try one piece I realized wait a minute,  we’re taking a break...That was a close one almost unwrapped a piece and put in my mouth but, I put it back on the shelf. 10 minutes later, pop sickles, ice cream bars and coconut bars got in my cart!!! I have no idea how that happened and they manage to make it home... I told the ice cream it can stay in the freezer and I will only have one ice cream bar. I made a deal with the ice cream hoping it understands and sticks to staying in the freezer or allowing other hands to eat it...we will see if we can continue to be friends. I can’t continue to be friends with sugar if it can’t control itself and just allow me to eat one every couple of days...I brought my other best friend,  will power to see if they can help. Sure hope I don’t do any sabotaging to set myself up for failure...