Breaking Down the Negative Wall

My body hurts, low back, feeling heavy, ankles hurt, I can barely walk. My eyes can hardly open. I know all the junk in my body is coming forward. 
This is what I worked on:
I'm not diserving
I dont feel I'm doing anything right.
It has to be hard, excuses
I can only manifest small quantities.
I feel broken, life doesnt work. Things wont change.
Things don't change for me.
This is what I needed to work on.
As I went into a meditation state I said
I love myself enough to move forward
I'm deserving, things change for me, I'm enough, life works for me, Its easy, I take action. Everything that is in my way I let you go. I clear old thoughts and beliefs, old stories and programs.