I Released a Memory Why I Sabotage

After eating that Junk Food last night I woke up early and started apologizing to my body for what I had done. I'm working on having my best friend(my body) work with me. My stomach was bloated, my energy was doing okay. Usually my energy flat lines to where I'm just laying there like a zombie...no thought, no motivation...I'm excited!  I have energy to write about  this.
Anyways, I went to the field to do some leg work out, sprints for cardio and to release some junk while also forgiving my body. Also, ask for forgiveness so, we are (me and my body) functioning at 100%. As I'm Sprinting I say ( I love you legs and my legs love me. My body is working at optimal health. My body is strong and fast. My body is motivated. As I did my lunges I noticed I had no pain. Earlier I had leg pain. Today is an important leg day. We are building the sexiest legs ever! 
Now time to find out why I sabotage my body. I'm ready to stop it. I stretched in the shade breathing in and out and asked "What would it take to stop eating junk food when I'm ready to stop?" All the sudden I went back to a memory where I was eating 1/4 gallon of chocolate chip mint ice-cream. My step dad appeared in my memory. All though, he was only in my life for a short time, he never said good bye to me. I broke down in tears and realized that must have been important. I remember it wasn't a good relationship for my mom. When I muscle tested myself the test came up that that was the reason I eat like a crazy junk food person. I always wondered If my mom knew I was the one eating all the muffins in a day or eating a gallon of icecream in a few days. I would eat a cake. MMM....I still get excited just thinking about it and I don't even have to be there to eat it. I will let you know if it works.